I've always been surrounded by a lot of GREAT people. Yes, great. Not good. Not bad. Great people.
I've always been jealous of their greatness. Their beauty. Their excellence in whatever they feel like doing.
I never thought of myself as great. Yes, I was good. Yes, I knew I could do anything I want to do... but never master any of it.
As someone has always told me, I am a jack of all trades, master of none.
How can I then live a normal life if I can't even master one skill? One talent? One... concept, even.
I have friends who write as if it's their life's work but master another...
I have friends who can draw, paint and do ART as if... it was their life's passion...
I have techno-geek friends who know how to use software I can't even dream of having in my crappy computer...
I'm studying an Animation course... but what do I know about it?
I watch cartoons but that was just about it. I can't do animation like Walt Disney or Nickelodeon approved! What good am I to study this course if I'm to have competition to a great extent?
I'm not saying I'm worthless... I'm just saying that I want to master a skill. I don't want to be a jack of all trades. I want to master something... anything.
I can't cook. Clean. Draw. Write. Fiddle with techno-stuff.
All I'm good for is.......
I can't think of anything...
What good am I?
Will I stay as a student, jobless?
Will I stay as a girlfriend who whines a lot but does nothing?
I don't want your advice. I don't want your sympathy. All I want is a realization... and I don't want it from you.
I've seen too much hypocrisy... yeah... probably that's it...
6 comments:
er... gusto ko lang talaga magreply coz that was my problem nung high school. well, i just want to share my side, basahin man o hinde. well, its like this, wala kang mararating if you keep on comparing yourself to others. there will always be someone better than you kahit saan mo man tignan. kahit ako, naiinsecure. pero mas wala kang mararating if you continue to put yourself down. isa pa is, talents cannot be formed overnight. mahabang panahon talaga yan, taon taon yan. oo nakakasawa, pero you have to find the spark and discipline to stay on something kahit ayaw mo na. i went through that. kahit ngayon, im thinking about stopping the stupidity of film, pero i realized that if i leave film, saan ako pupunta? diba, better continue film kasi i found the spark na naman eh, and i know i want it. ganun din sa ibang bagay. patience lang yan. some people are born with talent, pero kaya yan habulin ng tiyaga at sipag. kung gusto mo talaga ang isang bagay, gagawin mo yun. isa pa, to find the spark, kailangan may goal and motivation ka. im talking about a long term goal. kasi, wala ka talagang direksyon kapag wala kang pinatutunguan. oo nga, alam mo yung lugar, pero may pupuntahan ka ba? its just like that, jack of all trades, master of none. in order to master something, kailangan madaanan mo talaga ang saya at hirap. time, patience, perseverance, discipline, drive and goal ang kinakailangan to master something. it is never too late to be good at something. find your passion. through experimenting and doing everything mo lang makikita kung ano talaga ang gusto mo. kung gusto mo ang isang bagay, hindi mo ito tatantanan. sorry kung mahaba, kasi I KNOW HOW IT FEELS, dumaan ako talaga dyan. seryoso. 3rd yr ko lang nalaman na gusto ko mamelikula. un... i got the passion and i formed a goal... yun lang.. sorry talaga sa haba nito, ayoko lang maligaw ang kapwa ko, i want to help, im doing my part as a human and as God's child.. thanks.. good luck sa paghanap ng passion mo.
salamat pero... there was a reason behind why i didn't want your pity... or advice...
never tumatak ang advice ng iba sa akin.
so what if you had gone through the same route?
so what if you've realized what you want?
so what if you finally had the perseverance, discipline, drive and goal needed to master something?
i don't care what you think...
thanks for caring child of "God"
but i don't think i can do what you're trying to say...
no.
i don't think anyone can help me but myself...
so tell me all the advice in the world...
...or pity me all you want...
...i wish to do my realization...
ALONE.
no offense... pero...
"I don't want your advice. I don't want your sympathy. All I want is a realization... and I don't want it from you."
alam mo nachachallenge ako lalo magbigay ng advice... (ang cute nyo talaga ni dio, parehong pareho kayo..) anyway, your problem ayon sa pagkakaintindi ko kanina is, you want to be good at something. ngayon, kinontra mo naman na what if i know what i want to do? bakit mo naman kokontrahin? kaya walang nararating kasi hindi pa nagagawa, kinokontra na. so lalo lang lalala. i mean, people keep on questioning pero they dont do anything about it. there are so many things life can offer. sayo nakadepende kung titignan mo sya na walang kwenta, o titignan mo as isang canvas na pwede mo pagexpressan ng gusto mo. we are social beings. and kung paulit ulit ka na kokontra, or keep a 'closed door policy', talagang walang mangyayari... wala kang marerealize kung tinitignan mo ang mundo as wala lang, or patuloy mong iaisolate ang pagkatao mo... in my personal experience, mahirap magtrabaho ng magisa sa isang malaking project. oo mahirap, ikaw lahat. mas madali matapos ang isang big project kapag may kasama ka, or nagpapatulong ka sa iba, you get strenght and other ideas from your company, at you also get to have fun habang ginagawa ang project. sa isang big project palang, hirap na tayo, pano pa kaya ang buhay. walang sinabi ang big projects sa project ng buhay. kung kokontrahin mo na agad ang posibilities, wala talagang mangyayari. personally, i think changing is corny, parang ang panget kapag lahat ng bagay maganda. walang conflict, walang kailangan isolve. pero ang saya saya ng buhay, ang daming magagawa. ayoko naman masayang ang buhay ko doing nothing but questioning and questioning. sabi ko nga kanina, ang corny magchange, oo nakokornihan ako, yung ang panget ng buhay mo, tapos biglang gaganda na parang stupid film, ang corny diba, pero narealize ko na people tend not to listen kasi lalabas na mali sila, ang most people do not like to be proven wrong. we tend to find other ways to solve our problems. on our own. oo, people are stubborn, kahit ako, ayoko nakikinig sa advice ng iba, kahit alam ko na mali ang ginagawa ko. pero i still try my best to listen, para maging progressive ako at hidi maging stagnant.
hindi ako kumokontra or something. actually, nageenjoy ako makipagpalitan ng philosophies, i really think uv got strong philisophies. masaya makipagbatuhan ng mga pilosopiya dahil mas gumaganda ang mundo. kahit sa tingin ko hinde. pero i think, you can survive a major in philosophy, since you always think about life. ang lawak ng scope ng questions mo, at malalim ang depht na tinatackle mo, beyond na agad ang target mo. u never stop questioning the bigger picture. sabi nga, scientists are good at the details and master a certain thing, philosophers are good at the wholeness of something and continues to question it. peace tayo, nagpapatakbo lang ako ng utak.. naeexcercise eh :Dhindi ko kinokontra ang statements mo, natutuwa lang ako magreact dahil nachachallenge ako.. personal entertainment ika nga.. kung baga hitting two flamingoes with one apple, giving advices and entertaining the mind.
first point:
ugggh... ganito ung question na:
"so what if you've realized what you want?"
ibig sabihin po nito:
"ano ngayon kung nalaman MO (not me) na ang gusto MONG (not me again) gawin?"
un lang... for the first point ^__^ no offense pero mali ata basa nyo eh.. ^___^
second point:
you mispelled philosophy wrong. on line 29, you spelled it as "philisophy"... wala lang ^__^
medyo... duguan ang words kapag nire-recheck ko.
third point:
i'm really grateful for your concern and all... but as i've said:
"I'm not saying I'm worthless..."
and
"...I knew I could do anything I want to do..."
^___^
fourth point:
i DO have a long term goal... it's just that i don't have a short term one... gets the difference?
long term = something you REALLY want to do someday...
short term = something you want to do NOW... ^___^
fifth point:
everyone is a philosopher. they just don't want to show it... since a lot of people would reject their ideas... why fear? sabi mo nga:
"there are so many things life can offer."
why fear questioning life, right? and i'm not questioning it...without doing something. i work and work... i breathe air and live... but it's no harm questioning life.
it doesn't make you a less person if you question life. you can do it as much as you want. as long as you don't let it take over your entire life... i'm alive... so... i live.
people are different... wherever you look. oo nga, i compare myself to them pero... all I'm saying is, I want to have a skill too. you see, i don't have a skill yet. i can do a lot pero... i don't have my own thing. i want to have my own thing. gets? for the sake of diversity, i don't want to have the same "thing" with someone i know. 'cause it'll end up in a mess... or worse... my downfall. so for now... i'll stick with animation... even if it's really not MY thing... maybe i'll learn to love this skill... someday...
^___^ no offense uleet.... PIS TAU... ^__^
PS: hmm... dio?
neyk.. ok, well, maraming sagot sa so what... tinatamad na ako sumagot... anyway, short term goals comes from your long term goals... makakabuo ka ng short terms kapag may long terms ka.. nu pa ba.. im not saying questioning life is bad or something, im just saying its not nice to question question question pero wala ka namang ginagawa (w/c i think hindi ikaw). isa pa is, i dont think its possible to be good at something that other people arent good at.. kasi nga, meron at meron din dyang kapareho ng talents etc.. nagkakaiba lang kayo kung paano nyo ginagamit ung talent.. maybe mas magaling siya dito, pero doon naman mas magaling ka.. combination combination lang yan..
this is the mere reason why i don't want others' advice or sympathy...
they're never taken...
and the ones who give them get hurt...
sad. but isn't it true?
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