January 23, 2006

Sa Bisperas ng Ating Unang Anibersaryo

"Mahal kita pero di mo lang alam..."


Nagbabakasakaling mabanggit sa'yo ang tunay na damdamin.
Ako yata'y baliw na, mali-mali ang mga hangarin.
Lalim ng utak mo'y pinipilit kong sisirin.
Ano nga ba ako sa'yo? Ikaw rin ba'y may pagtingin?

Ikaw ay tigilan ko na, sabi ng iba
Eh ano bang magagawa ko? Ika'y mahal ko na!
Ang puso ko'y di na patitinag kahit anong sabihin nila.
Dala-dala ko na yata ito hanggang sa aking pagtanda.

Isang araw sa buwan ng Enero
Buong magdamag ay magkausap tayo
Bigla na lang natigil ang aking mga kuwento
Hindi nagtagal bigla kong napagtanto:

Damdaming pigil kailangan ko nang sabihin
Hindi ko naman hangad na ako ay iyong mahalin
Kaya laking gulat ko nang iyong banggitin,
"Huwag kang mag-alala, ang nadarama ko'y gayun din."


"Mahal kita. Ngayon ay alam mo na."

January 21, 2006

ang pagbabalik ng puting kawal

kasama ang mga mamemelikula, kami ay bumuo ng bagong nasaan.
subali't patuloy ang pagaandar ng oras,
nawawalan na kami ng oras.
hindi ko na alam ang gagawin
noon, mas simple, mas mabilis. hindi ko inaasahan.
ngayon, mas komplikado, lahat alam ang gagawin,
lahat alam kung ano ang maganda.
mas mahirap matapos ng mabilis, mas pinapaganda.

dumilim na, di ko na talaga alam, sabi ko, reshoot nalang.
o sige.

sa gitna ng tensyon, sa loob ng jeep,
apat na puting kawal ang dumating.
pamilyar sila, kilala ko nga.
ang isang kawal ay malapit sa aking kaibigan. siya.
sabi ko sa kaibigan ko, paisa nga.
muli akong nakipagsapalaran ng sandalian sa puting kawal.
isang hinga lang, nabawasan ang tensyon.

pagdating sa dbtc, muli kong hinanap ang puting kawal.
ngunit, wag nalang. kami ay kumain ni kaibigan.

kinabukasan, hinanap ng katawan ko ang puting kawal.
nyek, astig. ay joke. ang panget,sabog ako,
kasi hinahanap ko si puting kawal.
buong araw, sabog, bagsak.
kinailangan maglakad upang mawala sa isip.
pero gusto ko pa rin.

hanggang ngayon, sabog ako, bagsak, kasi hinahanap ko si
puting kawal
kaibiganin ko nalang kaya sya?
masaya yun, parating may usok.
naks, special effects.




yosi muna tayo? ...ulit?

January 14, 2006

...ibon mang may layang lumipad...

On a really confusing day in my unfathomable reality, I tried to observe the different phenomenon and events in this world. Things such as my homeland’s squalid state and the people who settled with mediocrity. I hope I learned something from my observations…

My homeland’s history according to me…

Philippines, a country that used to have its own religion, leaders, beliefs and identity. Then the Spaniards came and colonized our country. We were treated like animals, we were degraded in our own country, as if we were slaves of our visitors. Then because of the Treaty of Paris, we were bought by the Americans from the Spaniards… we were like manufactured goods. Emilio Aguinaldo thought we were independent… and so did our ancestors but if they can predict the future, maybe they would know we're not. Then because of Hitler’s undeniable talent in oration, he convinced the Germans and other countries like Japan to colonize. The world was divided. Japan, a country who used to be power hungry, went to the Philippines disguised as our friends but it was only a scheme that they used. They brutally murdered our countrymen as if they were slaughtering animals. We fought. We won. Or so we thought.

People who thought that our country was worth dying for wasted their precious lives for our country’s sake. These people are those who acquired great sense of nationalism and patriotism. Jose Rizal, Andres Bonifacio, and Melchora Aquino are only few names of the people who truly cared for our country. Let us thank them… we wouldn’t be what we are right now without them.


Then the late dictator, Ferdinand Edralin Marcos made history. Like Hitler a very strategic and intelligent human being. Another prominent orator. The regime of Ferdinand Marcos was somewhat beneficial and detrimental to our country. He declared Martial Law on the 21st of September 1972. This act and the rest that goes with it prompted the EDSA Revolution in 1986, the REAL and ONLY People Power. Marcos was ousted. Cory won the mock election. Then Ramos won for presidency after Cory’s term. Then Joseph the 13th president had gone through an unfinished impeachment trial and GMA, the vice-president, took over as acting president. Erap never resigned, just for the record. After 3 years she vied for presidency as an incumbent president and went head to head with Fernando Poe Jr. Then in June 2005 a wiretapped conversation between GMA and a COMELEC official, allegedly Virgilio Garcillano, was exposed to the public by Ignacio Bunye, the president’s press secretary.


The “president” had been taking part in a lot of controversies… the wiretapped conversation, the jueteng scandal wherein her husband and eldest son were suspected of committing. A lot of Senate and Congress trials and debates went on and on 24/7 and it came to a point when they didn’t even sleep just to vote YES or NO.

It’s sad really when we see our country divided. Ms. President is calling for national unity which I think would be highly improbable if she would remain in her office. The dollar rates are improving, yes that’s true… but more than half of the Filipino people are unemployed and can’t even eat 3 meals in a day. Where’s the improvement there? Doesn’t the president notice the condition of the people she is supposed to be serving and she calls herself an economist? Isn’t she feeling guilty that more than half of the people she’s serving are living on the streets with no food to eat and she is living in a palace with caviars and expensive champagnes being served to her in one of her meals? She is obliged to serve us… she’s the president… and we are not obliged to serve her.

And now… she would be extending her term… yes… for a parliamentary form of government. I agree with the parliamentary form of government in our country... but with the same people in the seats in the parliament, I’d rather have a military takeover. Speaking of the military… they should serve us not the president.

Most of the things happening in our country aren’t good. We have erroneously set our priorities. We are still slaves up to now… not by foreigners but by ourselves. If our heroes were alive right now… they would have cursed us with all their might. Isn’t it sad that what they fought for became somewhat useless because of our power hungry attitude? I wonder why we Filipinos love seeing and watching other Filipinos fall… Why not help them stand up rather than watch them fall and laugh at them. What happened to the hospitable Filipino?

We need to change… and that change should take place right now. I know we can do it… we have lots of guts and talents within us. We shouldn’t be scared to show the world who we are. We still don't know what our future would be like but there's one thing I know... it depends on us, Filipinos.

“Ang kanser ng lipunan ay dapat ng gamutin bago pa ito unti-unting lumala at kumalat." –Jose Rizal.

January 13, 2006

Pedophilia...

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Bakit my mga taong gumagawa nito?

Si "A" ay dalawang taong gulang at merong napagandang mata. Ang nanay ay nagtratrabaho sa night club bilang isang hostes. Gabi Gabi siyang iniiwan ng nanay nya sa Lola niya na merong kalaguyo.

Isang araw, nakita nila ang batang may ginagawang malaswang bagay na hindi ginagawa ng mga batang mura ang edad na katulad niya, hinahawakan niya ang sarili niyang ari. Nagulat ang kangang nanay at siya ay ginulpi. Nagtanong sa lola ang nanay, kung bakit ginagawa ng bata yun, maari daw ang dahilan ay marumi ang kanyang ari at nangagati lamang. Ngunit, ang pangyayari ay naulit ulit.

Ang sabi ng bata sa katulong " Si tito robie ( live-in partner ng lola") kini-kiss ako dito( tinuro ng bata ang labi, ang dede, at ang ari)". Umiyak ang nanay at tinanong "Ilang beses ginawa, anak", ang sagot ng bata " dameng beses , mommy". Dahil wala na siyang magawa, hindi na niya mahahanap ang lalaking kalaguyo ng nanay niya. Pati pag luha ay wala ng magagawa. Komunsulta sila sa doktor, at kinompirma na ang bata ay nagalaw na.

Awa sa bata na walang muwang na may dungis na ang pagkatao. Pighati naman para na ina, at Galit sa taong gumawa nitong
krimen na ito.
"Pag buhay sana ang sinira, ay buhay din kapalit."

January 10, 2006

release ulit

tang ina
tang ina
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PuTaNG iNa!

tang ina nyo lahat.

tang ina, kailangan ko yata ng yosi.
bigyan nyo ko ng yosi.
tang ina hindi ako nakapag iced mocha.
matutulog nalang ako.

(paumanhin fellow artikulo members)
(sorry kuya Jess sa aking pagmumura)

January 08, 2006

On positive Thinking

To make your ideas turn into realities, don't forget to look at reality first.

Positive Thinking

Positive thinkers, or what we call optimistic people, seem to look at ideals first before they look at realities. Some optimistic people say they look at reality before making ideas and/or ideals. But it seems that their idea confuses me and makes me think in such deep thought. If you really are looking at the real things before making ideals, why does it seem you regret to see that there is a real hideous reality that we can't escape? I am a pessimist and I dare not question other people's thoughts but they just seem too vague.

There is a reality we have to face here. The world is merely crumpling to bits because of our own mistakes and mischief. It's something that would most probably come out of a pessimist's mouth, right? But isn't this also the reality we are enduring? To make things short, let's focus on the Philippine setting since that is mainly what I can view and criticize. Look at our water supply. It's about time we get some technologies from other countries so that we can have water clean enough to drink. But why won't we? It's because of the financial crisis we are facing. Now this starts another argument. Why are we having a financial crisis? Isn't it because some people are too selfish to even think of their countrymen that they can't even donate a single penny to the poor? Or are some people just plain corrupt that money is what makes their worlds go round? Yes, pessimistic, isn't it? But it seems optimistic people would want to think that these people are using our money to make projects such as roads and the like? That we have beautiful parks to look at and the like? But the real thing is there are no roads to look at. There is no fresh air that we can breathe. But still, we look at things positively. It's the way optimists think and it confuses me. Why can't they accept reality as much as pessimists can? I can't say there is a middle ground on this. They are contradictory ideas.

This confuses me even more. So does it mean that if you're a pessimist, you are more ready to accept the fact we experience now? Or are we merely lowering ourselves too much in a sense that the ideals and/or ideas of the optimists turn into a reality? I actually don't think so. Yes, it may seem that pessimists are more ready to face reality but are they ready to make ideas? And, are optimists ready to turn their ideas into realities? There's always the down side, right? But why is it that sometimes, optimists and pessimists argue whenever they do not understand each other's opinions? Optimists would say that pessimists are thinking too much of the down side of things; Pessimists would say otherwise. But aren't they both right? Both sides have an argument to say, and they are merely not helping each other out of their problems. Ironic. But still, isn't the sake of arguing and debating the reason we are living? It's it because of the imperfections of our life that makes us seek for perfection? Wouldn't that be the purpose of like? Therefore, our reason for living is partly to seek for arguments and hate? So in the contradiction of hate, which is love, we complete the reason for living and continue to live perfectly? Is it because in our imperfection we gain perfection?

If this is so, we can conclude that positive thinkers do not do more than negative thinkers. They're equal in a sense that both sides have a deep and agreeable point. We need to argue but not in a sense we'll tear each other into pieces. We argue because we need to look at each other's opinion and go into equilibrium.

January 07, 2006

maglabas ng galit

PUTA CARMS! YOURE SUCH A PAIN IN MY WONDERFUL ASS... FUCK YOU! KAILANGAN MO BA UMEPAL SA BUHAY KO PALAGI? DON'T THROW YOUR INSECURITIES SAKIN, DAMN IT, NAKAKAPIKON NA EH. IF BY ANY CHANCE YOU READ THIS, IM SORRY. AS YOU CAN SEE, THIS ENTRY IS IN ENGLISH, I WROTE IT IN ENGLISH SO THAT YOU'LL UNDERSTAND IT WELL. IM SO TIRED OF YOUR CHILDISH BEHAVIOR. I DONT WANT TO WASTE MY TIME WRITING THIS, BUT I REALLY NEED TO RELEASE MY ANGER.
yun lang. kung nabasa mo nga, wala akong balak makipagaway. wag mo na lang ako pansinin. yun lang. kung nakasakit ako sorry. tang ina. i suggest na magmature ka na. then lapitan mo na ako. (sorry kuya Jess kung nagmumura ako...)

January 06, 2006

episode 2

dahil sa hindi ko inaasahang dahilan, ginanahan ako dugtungan ang first part ng pakikipagsapalaran nina bax, lisa at gary.

eto na!

[fade in]
[bax and gary sitting on the bench]
[mauubos na ni bax ang yosi]
bax: ui pare, ubos na yosi ko, sige, mauna na ako ha. room 508 ah, tapos na ung class ni prof. villaflores.
gary: ano oras ba matatapos ung class ni lisa? baka mahuli nya tayo.
bax: 4:00 pm pa. wag ka maglala, may trenta minutos pa tayo.
gary: sige, una ka na. sunod na ako. bili lang ako ng tubig para buhay na buhay at game magparty. [winks]
bax: sige. sumunod ka agad ah, baka mahuli tayo.
gary:sige, sunod na ako.
[bax to room, gary to store]
[fade out]

[fade in]
[gary in store]
[nagtext si bax]
bax: "asan ka na ba... dalian mo nga. ang bagal mo. nga pala, nandito si jed ;) "
[gary goes to room]
[camera follows gary to the door then door closes]
[fade out]

[fade in]
[camera in corridor]
[voices lang]
bax: tatapon sakin, tang ina!
gary: teka, tang ina mo maghintay ka!
bax: PUTANG INA! sabi ko sandali eh!
jed: hahaha, tang ina, sorry.
gary: di naman kailangan magmadali kasi eh, diba jed?
bax: wala nang aabutan si lisa. tang ina nyo.
[fade out]

[fade in]
[lisa's classroom]
[bax texts]
bax: "lisa, tapos na class mo diba? punta ka dito sa 508... ;) "
lisa: ha? ano to? anong ginagawa nyo sa 508?
lisa: jenny, samahan mo naman ako sa 508. baka kung ano tong pinaglplaplanuhan nitong mga to.
[fade out]

[fade in sa 508]
[camera moves in room]
gary: dude, andyan na yata sila, nariring ko.
jed: puta tumahimik kayo ah, gary ikaw magbukas ng pinto.
bax: tang ina mo jed, basa basa pa ako.
[camera moves out room]
lisa: bax? andyan ka ba? bat mo ko pinapunta dito?
bax: tang ina, teka sandali.
lisa:ano kayang ginagawa ng mga to.
jenny: malay ko...
gary: lisa, may kasama ka?
lisa: oo, si jenny.
gary: tang ina pare! dalawa to. ang dami natin..

[jed whispers to gary]
jed: buksan mo yung pinto tapos ako hahawak kay lisa.

bax: okey na ako. lisa pasok ka
lisa: okey.. ano ba meron dito?

jed grabs lisa












bax, jed, gary, jenny: happy birthday!!! surprise!!!

lisa: ha?!?!
jed: happy birthday! kala mo lalampas tong araw na wala kaming surprise?
gary: gago tong si jed eh, natapon ung juice kay bax. naubos tuloy.
bax: kaya nga eh, basa basa tuloy ako.
lisa: hahaha, ok lang yan. basta may pagkain... yey! thanks talaga guys. youre the best.
jenny: tara kain na tayo!

[they eat the food]
[fade out]

the end. :D

January 04, 2006

What's with the fags and bisexuals anyway?

ito ang unang post ko sa artikulo... yay. no offense sa mga tao, pero gusto ko lang sumulat ng artikulo tungkol isyung iyon.

(freestyle)

ito ay kinuha mula sa isang conversation ng tatlong teenager sa isang tambayan.
mga gumanap: gary; lisa; bax

[fade in]
[nakatambay sila sa may benches na nakaharap sa kalsada]
[bax lights a cigarette, lisa drinks her iced tea, habang nagrerelax si gary]

bax: pota tignan mo ang daming bading talaga sa mundo natin ngayon no.
lisa: oo nga eh, sayang, gwapo pa naman ung iba eh.
gary: ewan ko ba sa mga tao ngayon. kung ano ano na ang mga pinipili nilang landas.
lisa: ang alam ko, kinalakihan nalang daw yan.
bax: basta ako nandidiri parin ako sa kanila.
lisa: wag naman kayo ganyan, tao rin naman sila.
bax: sunugin ko yang mga yan eh.
[bax throws cigar on floor]
gary: nyahahaha.
lisa: nyahaha, ang sama mo talaga.
[gary grabs lisa's iced tea and pours it on cigar]
gary: at buhusan natin ng iced tea pagkatapos mo sunugin.
[gary returns lisa's iced tea]
lisa: ang sama nyong dalawa.
gary: wala namang ibang iniintindi yang mga bading na yan kundi makahanap ng tite.
bax: o kaya mga papa na rereypin sila.
lisa: bastos kayo talaga! kadiri...
gary at bax: nyahahaha... apir tayo dyan.
lisa: sira kayo talaga.
[bell rings]
lisa: uy,may class na ako, sige. kita kita nalang mamaya...
[lisa leaves]
[gary and bax looks at each other]
[gary aakbayan si bax]
[bax holds gary's hands]
[bax and gary smiles at each other]
[bax wispers to gary]
bax: mamaya ah..
[bax taps gary's face, moves back]
[bax lights a cigarette]
[gary lights a cigarette]

[fade out]

hindi ito comedy or kung ano, its not suppose to be funny, its just one of my short film ideas. kayo na maganalyze. ty, may class na rin ako sa wakas!