I've always been surrounded by a lot of GREAT people. Yes, great. Not good. Not bad. Great people.
I've always been jealous of their greatness. Their beauty. Their excellence in whatever they feel like doing.
I never thought of myself as great. Yes, I was good. Yes, I knew I could do anything I want to do... but never master any of it.
As someone has always told me, I am a jack of all trades, master of none.
How can I then live a normal life if I can't even master one skill? One talent? One... concept, even.
I have friends who write as if it's their life's work but master another...
I have friends who can draw, paint and do ART as if... it was their life's passion...
I have techno-geek friends who know how to use software I can't even dream of having in my crappy computer...
I'm studying an Animation course... but what do I know about it?
I watch cartoons but that was just about it. I can't do animation like Walt Disney or Nickelodeon approved! What good am I to study this course if I'm to have competition to a great extent?
I'm not saying I'm worthless... I'm just saying that I want to master a skill. I don't want to be a jack of all trades. I want to master something... anything.
I can't cook. Clean. Draw. Write. Fiddle with techno-stuff.
All I'm good for is.......
I can't think of anything...
What good am I?
Will I stay as a student, jobless?
Will I stay as a girlfriend who whines a lot but does nothing?
I don't want your advice. I don't want your sympathy. All I want is a realization... and I don't want it from you.
I've seen too much hypocrisy... yeah... probably that's it...
